dangerous „hero’s journey“ of the last 5 years ~ of the power to BE

I love the flowers and the trees, the GENTLE nature. I am connected to them with devotion, they are my siblings because .. everything is connected with everything! ~ Mitakuye Oyasin ~ all my relations – that means: „all my relatives“! and my teachers for more than 27 years! ~~~ How I got there was a VERY difficult life riddled with suffering, illness, massive pain and threat. ~ I was born in 1968 in the „moon of the budding trees“ and this is what sustains me. The entirely and indomitable WILL to LIVE💗🌳🌸❣
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Since 1994 I have been in a blatant and challenging process that has made me a shaman. I’ve gone through thousands of dismemberments (term of Shamanism) my entire life and put myself together NEW again and again from the parts. In doing so, I have resolved the unconscious and subconscious, transgenerational transfers of trauma as well as the deaths and spells suffered on in my own previous lives, which were placed on me back then and which have unfortunately caused serious illness until my life today!
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In the last more than five years I had to face an extremely dangerous process in which my life was in danger several times over the years.
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At the same time I KNEW all the time that it is a „shamanic process“ and I was and still am in basic trust and DECIDED to LIVE day after day!
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Even before that, since 1994 (27 years until today) I was subjected to this „upside-down Kundalini process“ – but without even knowing this term at the time, not knowing what it was and how to deal with it when it began.
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Conventional medicine wanted to force me to only take pills (painkillers and psychotropic pharmacy) in order to “work” again as soon as possible – as they desired!
But that was impossible! Because the pain was in the truest sense of the word „hell“ and if I had already known then, what I would have to go through in these 27 years, I would have voluntarily passed out of life.
it was good for me to be unknowing 🙂!
because these 27 years have made me the shaman I am today!
I decided to learn the language of my soul to understand the CAUSE of the pain!
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Within the last more than 5 years I transform trauma, that of myself suffered in this life, of which there was unfortunately a lot as well as my previous incarnations (as described above, just as highly traumatic).
Below I describe for whom else I also solve / solved trauma!
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Interestingly, I have a very deep emotional and friendly relationship with a dear woman who is an energy healer and kinesiologist for decades. We are twin souls!
We were able to cross-reference our information about previous lives and that was wonderful. So we found out that we had incarnated several times at the same time and which deaths we died together and what our traumatizations were in this regard and how this had affected our lives.
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I will spare you the glaringly traumatic details here so that the triggers do not occur for you! But it was massive to find out all of this and to deal with all these!
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but at the same time it was important that I could find this information, because all this unredeemed has a life of its own that causes symptoms and illnesses. That is why it is right and good to have dealt with it.
When we face this, we redeem our „hurt inner child“ – whereby our „whole inner child“ becomes stronger and stronger!
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I have resolved thousands of traumas in this process for more than 5 years (reverse Kundalini process that started 27 years ago with MASSIVE headaches, whole body aches and depression and went reversed than it is commonly known), looking at me in all of the traumatizing situations I’ve ever experienced in my life – and thousands of them!
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I cried countless hours, held myself, fed my inner child, cradled, loved, loved myself in all of my being here, in earlier times of this my life and in the respective present moments.
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I felt all the pain, some of which was even more violent – although I had learned to deal with this massive pain over the past 27 years!
In other posts I have already described how psychotherapy (for 4 years until 2008) helped me ! 
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Some think that being a shaman is romantic, all you have to do is sit by the fire and drum the drums and that this all there is to do. Who is of this opinion -> be glad that YOU have been spared having to become a shaman in such dangerous and life-threatening processes as those who are the light bearers of the world have to go through and have had to be so strong become as they are today!
I’ve heard of various shamans who have had to face massively blatant life-threatening processes in recent years!
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I know of myself, I am a tree 🌳💗 shamanic visions showed me this tree that I am!
This tree was uprooted in this blatant and life-threatening process – “hero’s journey” – my power animals were stolen from me, my spiritual allies were snatched away, I was separated from my Mother Earth, separated from my Grandmother Water, I was separated from the life-sustaining element of Air. I was separated from my friends and sister, and from those with whom I had previously been on friendly terms, I was subjected to massive trials that have put my life in danger again and again!
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I was consistently the CHILD (and the old woman, see below !) that I am and whose strength I have developed in the last 27 years, namely the power of the INNER SILENCE, the power to be amazed about flowers, the scent, the COLORS of NATURE, the GREEN POWER of nature, my deep spiritual connection to TREES, my teachers and allies – I worked out and lived all this INNER PEACE while I was tormented by massive pain in the respective presence of my life!
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That was a tough school and at the same time the most important thing I ever learned! The whole life was VERY hard, because I met too many of those who wanted to adjust myself to „their normal“ constantly and repeatedly. I was only surrounded by people who told me I had to stop noticing what I was perceiving, I had to grow a thicker skin, I had to finally stop being „me“ and finally had to start „function”as THEY found it to be normal in THEIR “normal”!
I was forced to remain silent, that was one of the age-old traumas – speechlessness about suffering!
unfortunately much more, which remains unsaid about YOUR integrity!
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Throughout my life I have met many people who were heavily addicted, sometimes to the point of mortal danger, and some also died – a great many who were substance-related (meaning alcohol, drugs), but unfortunately just as many who were process-related (means addicting behaviors)!
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I was still an unrecognized Asperger’s autist until 2017 and am also highly sensitive highly sensitive and highly sensitive. Before I discovered these terms, I felt alone and from another planet. Because I WAS alone!
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For decades of walking through the deepest darkest valleys with all this pain, darkest depression and massive migraines that generated massive heat in my head, I was ALONE throughout!
i had everything i had to learn, to learn ALONE!
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I learned from TREES, from quiet sitting and walking in nature, I listened to the trees, the wind, the leaves, the blossoms, the moss, the water, the lake, the rain, the gentle and the heavy rain, to my Mother Earth ~ I listened to Thunderstorm that enlivens me!
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The constant pain opened up other levels of consciousness. For all my life time, I avoided drugs, alcohol and medication, and throughout the decades made sure to only consume ONE pack of painkillers (20 pieces) a month!
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With acute attacks of migraines, depression and pain, I often stayed in bed in a darkened room for months, recovering through sleep and silence. Alone.
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I was denied participation in social life that was so “normal” for everyone else! Neither concerts nor restaurants, because the money was and is very little available.
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During my life, thunderstorms gave me strength! but at the same time I was threatened by thunderstorms for my whole life. Most of the time I was alone in the forest or on my bike in an open field when a big thunderstorm came and there was more danger from lightning strikes and falling trees!
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Since 1994 I sang songs for the river, for rain, for small animals in need, for the birds, for the forest and the trees – also for me – and also for my relatives!
I sang THEIR songs to the dying while I accompanied them as they died and when I left I had forgotten the song – it was only THEIRS 💗
(I did this for people, animals and trees, my mother, my father, my aunt, for animals (my own and others), landscapes, peoples, elements, friends and in other situations more.
The term for it is „death doula“
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I also had to let my brother go out of this life 10 years ago, I’m writing about him in my heart-strength blog! He left us before he was 60 years old, which left a BIG void for all of us! I am at peace with him, I know that his spiritual energy continues to accompany me.
In a vision we sat together by the fireplace and drank cocoa :)
a BIG vision that shows sooo much 💗
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When my father was dying in 1990, I was still unaware that I was a shaman. I saw visions and what I saw was of great importance here in this „Hero’s Journey“ process!
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A good 10 years ago I was given a shamanic task, and in a vision I was told who I am, which at the time meant that I was completely unknowing of what this meant, not knowing how „I, the little forest soul“ could solve or should achieve.
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In the past 5+ years I have been given thousands of signs because the whole world is constantly communicating with us!
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in this way I recognized step by step in each NOW what it currently needed – right when the prompts came to resolve trauma, this had to do this, because that is the Kundalini process!
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It doesn’t matter whether I was tired or had to and wanted to rest, the Kundalini process required me to do this hard work, to resolve the trauma of millennia – to hold myself, to love myself – again and again to look at the worst collective traumatizations, to always be ready there too, to resolve them immediately and to look at the totality of this ~
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and always being grounded, always with me, always in my strength, around the clock, 7 days a week, 24 hours a day and always taking good care of myself! wisely alone!
I had already learned this 24/7 since 1994, so I could already do it!
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At the same time, in these last 5 years of this dangerous „hero’s journey“ I was also the Ancient Sage, because I AM this –
I am an OLD SOUL, here since the beginning of time –
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During my hikes through forest and fields, during this 5-year process, I also met people who were in existential need, to whom I offered my help – as so often in the last 27 years to all people I met – (for free).
I helped him change his perspective, from death to life and even to a smile and to feel understood and meant.
These were also shamanic benefits, process accompaniment.
I also accompanied various friends in their challenges with depression, crises, diagnoses and much more in the last 5 years and since 27 years. I also understand friendship, to be there for one another! and to help the other when he/she has challenges to overcome.
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We are in challenging times, where it is a matter of KNOWING, to know deeply emotionally, or to intend to find out, what holds us FROM INSIDE, when everything else falls away!
Strong ROOTS are vital!
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Contrary to the popular opinion that we should refrain evaluations, I think it is important to be able to evaluate! Because in times like these we have to know where we are, what we want, what is VALUE for us to live, how we imagine a world worth living in! Just as we judge whether the road is clear enough to cross, it is just as correct to judge which people we want to deal with! and more …
Everyone evaluates according to their own values, opinions and influences that have formed in us through our lives. Here it is helpful to solve trauma, because it frees up new potential to understand life experiences differently, to process them with them and thereby to free our „inner child“ and to become whole and strong!
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I know some who think that to love an aggressor unconditionally and to put up with everything from them is right! Unfortunately, this view is often related to unresolved (often transgenerational) trauma.
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I know from my own life that it is right to love OURSELVES! Especially when we have had traumatizing life experiences!
it’s about loving ourselves with everything we are, with everything we have done (maybe ‚wrong‘) in our lives! So we should learn this especially if we have had traumatic experiences, because these experiences unfortunately contribute to the fact that we often feel that we are not lovable. It’s important to start with ourselves :)
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Those who know about their own talents and strengths have stronger roots than those who are still unconscious or unclear about their own worth.

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I KNOW that I am rooted in UNIVERSAL LOVE!
this is source energy!
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I know we are LIGHT in a material body!
and we are powerful.
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This massively blatant process where I had to face my death made me a billion times stronger than I ever knew I was!
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Due to the many traumatizations, my RADIANT SELF was
shadowed by trauma.
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In relieving trauma (my past life, my current incarnation, my parents, siblings, ancestral lines, friends, the collective) I went very far back in „time“ and had thousands of shamanic visions.
If I wanted to write about it now, I would fill volume after volume.
Meanwhile, I was forced into the unresolved trauma of ’speechlessness‘ – like my entire life unheard, unseen, misunderstood. As a teenager I often had the impression that “I hadn’t learned life”.
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I realized that I have met all of these massively difficult people in my lifetime in order to KNOW what was and is to be done in THIS process here.
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I went through the „dark night of the soul“ during my whole life and I heard from others who do the same through their lifetime in this incarnation. They too told (how I also experienced it here), that they were separated from their spirit guides, spirit allies and their power animals in order to have to find their way „alone“!
That was where they and I got VERY STRONG as well!
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It is a MIRACLE that I SURVIVED this dangerous process
and I am really happy to still be here 😊🌳
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I refused to die several times when challenged
here in this dangerous process!
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I always knew about my RIGHT to my LIFE –
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which unfortunately I had to resign again and again for the last 53 years due to unresolved trauma or where I was repeatedly „forced to my knees“, which then expressed itself again through the massive pain and also weakened me.
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During the process, I kept getting younger! 🙂
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When relieving all of the traumatizations – including collective ones – allergies were resolved, pain relieved, massive overstimulation disappeared, lack of resilience decreased noticeably, I feel healthier and stronger than ever!
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5 years ago I was also a „strong shaman“, but without knowing it!
Now I KNOW and I’m glad I AM!
and know that it is me!
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and yes i love myself!
WITH all life experiences, just like I AM …
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and I KNOW that the time is over when I let myself get out of my strength and let myself be silenced!
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I’m here…
to BE –
🕊🌿 PEACE
🥰🌿 QUIET
💗 LOVE
🌈 Tenderness
🌸🌿 Gentleness
🌱 FREEDOM
🍀☀️ LIGHT
and beacon by day and by night
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and my dear FRIENDS help me with this 😊🥰😍
the GREEN POWER of nature
the little wild flowers
the plants
the little, gentle birds
my beloved mother earth
my wonderful grandmother water
the BREATH of LIFE – the air we breathe
which my dear spiritual allies and relatives, the trees, provide
for us🌳🌿🌱🌸
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and the GREAT SPIRIT, the primordial power,
the UNIVERSAL LOVE that is LIFE! 💗🌱
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the WILL to LIVE,
is the LIFE FORCE
the WILL power
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even the most difficult situations, experiences, illnesses to
OVERCOME
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to overcome death
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THIS is my INNER FIRE ☀️🌱🌳.
this shows that „the whole of life ‚upside-down‘ in the world now shows EFFECT
and has helped me and helps me again and again,
to live!
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I am… 💗🥰😊
🌳
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Kind regards – ForestSoul
14.4.2021, 10:46 p.m.
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