my way to become shaman through pain – Forest Soul

Many want to be „normal
– I want to „be myself“ and be FREE and LIVE real
(out of this real hard life I describe below!)

and even this is what EVERY human has to learn in these ascent years NOW in the changing world age and to understand and learn –

  • Self-love, authenticity,
  • own potential found from our own difficult life experiences
  • arrive at ourselves and get to with all that prevented us to LOVE!
  • free our „inner child“!
  • to be in confidence with our true perception!
  • speak and live our truth – even against the resistance of different-Thinking
  • FEEL life and live FEELINGS
  • just BE
  • find our identity WITH symptoms, diagnoses and restrictions!
  • take up our space!
  • wanting to take responsibility !
  • because we are sooooo much more than what we are prevented by!

It was and is in those years NOW –
but since about a decade –
to concrete and accelerated rise of awareness
on ALL People GLOBAL

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we are now in the fifth world age and these hard years was and are the transition.  Behind us is a world age of violence, of war, of darkness, of suffering, loss, destruction – especially the destruction of womanhood!

The communication between men and women and communication at all was difficult.
I noticed in the last 10 years that many people „fought“ and that mental injuries and the presence-being of mind and soul were negated to the compulsive maintaining the so-called „normality“ and „illusion“ that facade, the mask and the self-imposed quest for power and youth to „any price“!
Also the lack of environmental awareness in the past can be read as far away from understanding how many are/were, that soul and psyche is connected to nature and that ALL is RELATED!

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NOW we are in the era where the feminine take center.
In us all, global – of course Mother EARTH and nature.

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It is about the liberation of the water,
the liberation of the maternal,
the mother – life in circles, 
the gentle, smoothly, of giving, of freedom, of flowing,
of slowness,
of tenderness, of care, of the „inner child“,

love for ourselves and humanity, self-empowerment,
responsibility for ourselves and what we do or undo,
the liberation of EARTH
– so as to liberate the „feminine principle“

in ALL people, whether man or woman!
because everyone carries BOTH principles in itself!

Of course this is even more complex,
as I now describe it!

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Around the world MANY energy healer,
healers and shamans
are working at the rise of awareness and ascension!

old knowlegde in the new consciousness is and has already been released in recent years by indigenous cultures, so it is preserved in the world –
because the elders of the indigenous peoples know, it is sacred knowledge which must be preserved in the world,
given in responsibly-CONSCIOUS hands!

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I was employed by the last THREE years in detail with various world cultures and religions, as well as with various prophecies, such as the HOPI, with prophecies and mythologies of various peoples of the Native American First Nations and the „Book of Revelation“  with the question of how these could be understand in other ways as our/the traditional required meanings and approaches!

I look prophecies, mythologies as the shaman I am – Shaman of universal LOVE – seeing in the dark, listening to the silence, as the wounded healer and with how I stand „upside down“ in this world AND as the child , that is me ~ so from the old knowing soul knowingly in „NEW consciousness“ ~ and also the innocent child, approaching more at ease on the „dangerous“ because it is/was still untaught about the dangers of the world.

With my standing „upside down“ in this world – I point to what „would be under the carpet“ like to keep as many people as thousands of years! 

I speak  – without the will to hurt – from what is commonly negated or what generally at themselves and others deemed „undesirable“ – which will be off-thought or is suppressed intentionally, veiled or masked!
(described by Carl Jung as a „shadow“)

I already am my entire life „different“ in the world, so to speak, „upside down“ and that’s what I consistently experienced since the beginning of my life with all the pain and resistors that have been imposed upon me by and imposed – I am absolutely „different“ in the world in many ways, including, for example, reduced consumption, regulations and also because I strive to try to solve mental injuries and look at myself (or the help-seekers), what gives and gave pain to me (trigger) or the other or the landscape and want to find a solution, a release. I do this with and for me and for others and for Mother Earth and all living creation!


I speak the truth and reject lies, irony is me incomprehensible, that is, I understand literally and answer „real“ as I am, without wearing masks. I answer out of the findings and insights of my life experience that I look at with psychotherapy and shamanic energy processes very hard work- so I could help many people in the last 20 years as a „way shower“! I live this.

Behind me is a very hard life (born in 1968).
In particular, the past three years from September 2016 to 2019 were VERY hard and I was limited in critical condition and almost always very ill and my life in real danger many times.

My knowledge of my roots in the universal LOVE the „loving divine consciousness“ helped me to live and survive!!

and in all that time I did and do my shamanic work FOR the benefit of all – that is what I came here – the inherent potential.

after a long search till 2019 I finally and gladly found a STRONG shaman who brought me several of my lost soul parts back and did extractions! before the quality of my life was massiv limited through my whole life and I was very ill and several times in great danger.
This isolated me from participating in events or meet friends as it would have been good for me!

Through the valuable work of this shaman, I felt much better and my health rise again!

Since autumn 2016 there was an extreme dominant sensory overload and massive pain and poor immune system – this I suffered continuously since the beginning of the severe pain disease of the whole body in 1994 with major depression, massive body aches, back and forth jumping locality over the entire body distributed, solid migraine and massive overstimulation, allergies, hypersensitivities many species. The massive pain opened other levels of consciousness and I found my own ways to deal constructively with pain and discovered the POWER of our CONSCIOUSNESS !

Also I found out in 2017 that I was an „unrecognized Asperger’s autistic“, which helped me to understand my behind me lying massively impaired life with thousands of emotional and physical injuries!

I heard from some people that it was better to keep silent about this,

but I learned to enjoy it including appreciate this highly sensitive true perception to develop that will help me to take nature and soul as deep and TRUE with all senses  and make my beautiful nature photographs.

I see it as a talent, as a gift, and I love me from the heart WITH ALL who I AM, with ALL that lies behind me, and with ALL, for which I have collected and found my self-understanding over the decades !

Even within my shamanic training, in which I was trained over 26 years only by trees and Spirits, nature, animals, landscapes and „universal love“ as well as pain and solitude, soul and psyche, shadow and light, I was interested already extensively in world cultures and world religions and busy with brain science, sociology, psychology, philosophy, research of consciousness, transpersonal psychology and cosmology.

I enjoyed writing for help and spent many days and nights in summer and winter alone in nature and learned!
VERY intense, I also learned from decades of being alone and alone-by hiking deep dark valleys. 10 years I lived self-determined off of people.

Every person looks and lives out of their own reality, which was formed by his own life experiences, thus causes their own views of the world, their  own imprints that own behaviors and understanding-wise.

That there are differences in understanding-ways, among other things, has to do with the experience of mental injury and in so doing that everyone  lived a different life (like in the previous sentence described).

to understand, that every person looks out and understand of their OWN reality helps very much to understand why communication in the past was often so difficult (of course, also in the whole world)
and why others are (very) different in their awareness and conception of the world.

This knowledge will help further a lot when we make ourselves AWARE!
It helps to be able to accept ourselves better and with this self-acceptance and self-esteem standing better grounded in the world and to be stronger in conflict situations!

in the center of our being we are whole and alive

I am working for more than 20 years with the question of how to overcome emotional injury because I have so many experienced (and so many met who had experienced such) and was so seriously ill, but also realized that I get better and healthier through insights and knowledge and self-esteem about my talents and strength !

Many symptoms and allergies, I have overcome.
I UNDERSTAND what the symptoms want to tell me, also about others!
In conventional medicine is so often only treats the symptom, and too often the causes are ignored!

Since 26 years I am interested with the context of addiction and trauma, and besides me many graduated trauma therapists understand trauma as CAUSE for addiction, but is being mentioned that very few of addiction affected people this relationship is known. In various approaches of graduated trauma therapy this understanding of trauma is the cause for addicition is the basic foundation to find new perspectives in dealing with addiction and trauma and to recover it.

The term „addiction“ here as well as substance-related addictions also as behaviors (=process-bound!)

I met many people affected by addiction (substance and process-bound)) over my life, and so I come to think about what could have something to do that fact with me? So I started to study this topic and search for causes.

Unfortunately, I have met many people who deny to have had traumatic experiences (but SHOW „addictive“ behavior or symptoms), although it is also very consistent with trauma therapist that EVERYONE in childhood or in later life had experienced mental injuries. Of course, there are big differences in the expression of traumatic experiences.

by wanting to understand the severe pain disorder, depression and migraine and other symptoms, as already mentioned above, I found  profound knowledge about Psychosomatics/organ language!

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I am sign-interpreter.. interpreting .. also for others .. 

  • what animal messengers want to tell us,
  • what symptoms want to tell us (body language, psychosomatic)
  • what experiences and situations want to tell us,
  • what conflicts trying to tell us,
  • what world events trying to tell us
  • what triggers want to tell us,
  • what scenes that proceed in our social environment want to tell us
  • f.e. fall on the steps / from the circuit, car stuck in the field, woodpecker in the wall, terrain under excavated from raccoons, broken parts on the car, life stories, traumatic experiences, statements, meetings with plants, humans and animals, symptoms, pain, stomach inflammation, behaviors, flloral in scratchs of the wall, felled trees, and more

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I am a „wounded healer “ –
founding out New Trails & insights from the profound wounding as well as very profound knowledge out of the many traumas in my life to live my Life in positive and creative ways to face life and its challenges in constructive ways!

Both my parents I accompanied in their dying processes (father in 1990 and mother in 2013).
When my mother’s identical twin sister in very old age of 86 years was already in coma (2007), I drove my mother for hundreds of kilometers to her at night (we were very related!) and my aunt press my hand IN COMA! – what I understand that I brought her beloved sister to her before a few hours later she left her physical body

the very unexpected death of my beloved brother in 2010 gave me the question of what is dying and two near-death experiences of my mother at the age of 87 and later opened new levels of understanding to me.
My two dogs and my cat I had to let go early.

As part of my shamanic work of the last three years since 2016 I solved particular trauma of the history of mankind, the Earth’s history, even suffered trauma in this life and past lives as well as the trauma and psychological injuries of my ancestors.

for many people and friends, acquaintances, having challenges with depression, grief, life-threatening diagnoses, with addiction, illness, suicide, abuse, I had and I always have my open ear and my undivided attention, as well as my spiritual helpers of the „universal love“ always just taken inspiration for them to broaden their perspective and to find new solutions. (continuously since 1992)

Through my own very hard life story I have found many insights, or have been given me a lot of very important informations!

I helped animals and plants, flowers and trees, people, landscapes, Mother Earth, water, ancestors, and for all who needed my help. So I walked through my life and my past life and met in thousands situations, animals, experiences, trees, people, issues that had to do with the dying and psychological injuries.

Out of this very heavy and hard life I found the greatest potential by my own intention to understand what trauma will tell us, what soul and psyche want to tell us, what heavy experiences trying to tell us.

In 1983 I began to interest in the question of what LOVE is and whether there were other ways of understanding other than the common definition. this was taken by many as peculiarly, but however, has helped me to be the one I AM now and to overcome disease and the continuous death processes, isolations and traumas in my life!

1996 I received from a naturopath important information to find the „universal love“. At that time I was still unknown what this meant!
and continuously through my life I received many major unforeseen SIGNS this regard.
Dealing with it as well as meditation, my forays into nature, my nature photography and the deep spiritual immersion in nature and forest by day and by night as well as finding my own creative approaches WITH illness has given me great help, to hold these harsh processes continuously through my life without being broken !

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In this my intention I was and I am unswervingly!
I know I am rooted deep from my soul like a TREE 
in the universal love of „loving Divine Consciousness“

JESUS ~ MARIA ~ living creation

this knowledge of these rootedness
in this deeply sacred LOVE
encouraged me and empowered me
and kept me upright

in this massively heavy process in the last three years,
but also throughout the previous 23 years,
so in the summary of 26 years till NOW in 2019

I am shaman of „universal love“

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  • take life into our own hands
  • Utter things destructive and out of uttering grow to more health
  • giving potential to become from trauma as we ARE meant to be!
  • finding life and creative solutions out of abusive experiences
  • salutary value of mindful listening to the life stories of others
  • Asperger’s Autism
  • be happy
  • focus, mindfulness
  • experiencing wealth
  • success and wealth are independent of money!
  • awareness, independence, self
  • boundaries, trust, love, healing
  • God, Jesus, happiness, self-love
  • changing perspectives
  • find new creative ways for our lives
  • learn to handle with heavy and depression
  • self understanding & insight
  • discover wealth
  • learn new courage to be alone
  • everything is connected!
  • be happy!

    colors of Life
  • life quality
  • attentiveness
  • Self-empowerment!
  • NEW confidence, inspiration
  • changing perspectives, creativity, courage makers
  • visualize,
  • Slowing!
  • Psychosomatics, body language
  • Self-image, vitality, impetus toward expansion
  • contemplation
  • NOW!
  • self-expression
  • regardful attentive self-care
  • HOW to get out of the rat race?
  • what psychological injuries cause our subconscious to disease and what we ourselves FOR ourselves can do to be aware and thereby help ourselves
  • against forgetting!
  • criticism of the consumer society
  • self-responsibility.
  • survival strategies out of trauma
  • power of words
  • cure
  • I let time together – listening, everything is born out of the moment 
  • healing encounters in attentiveness and care
  • energetic healing through being present
  • forgotten children
  • inner child
  • self-responsible change in the quality of life by wanting to understand the soul/psyche
  • understand symptoms
  • resonance.  awareness. relationships.
  • mindful energetic affection heals
  • transformation
  • moment
  • Decisions!
  • failing to become as we are meant to be!
  • seach for help
  • speak out about our interests, wounds and world views.
  • authenticity
  • self decide to rest!
  • visualize
  • focus, mindfulness
  • set limits!
  • trust, love, responsibility and personal responsibility
  • Selfhood, wholeness, soul
  • return to slowness, feedback,
  • Spirituality, Mindfulness, Zen
  • true perception with all our senses
  • consultation
  • energy work
  • being self, communication
  • return to our own wholeness
  • suggestions for self-realization and thus healing
  • joy, realness, self-acceptance, together with others = Diversity!
  • there is „one“ truth?
  • Psychology
  • nature photography
  • SILENCE

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